Yesterday, I was asking my best friend on a dinner date with a snack and two glasses of beer. Yes, two glasses of beer. It was raining dogs and cats. We nearly cancelled. But by some miracle of two lazy souls, we got together. I ride my yellow duck for 5km to the rendezvous. And Tam walked 1.2km from her office. I always live far from the central, so I usually am not very picky about the location. But yesterday was cold and rainy. The street was wet. And I didn’t want to wear a raincoat. The traffic also was terrible. People was like soulless riders and drivers. They just have one thing in mind which is going ahead. And this makes things worst. I was almost wet when i arrived at the bar. I have never been to that place before. It was monday and not so crowded. I enjoyed the atmosphere.
We talked. for the first time, I told her everything. Everything litterally. I feel relieved that finally I can be open with my best person. And finally, I feel thankful for doing that. Abit about her, we knew each other at college, people said that we like twins. But I heard a lot from other people that I looked like someone. We have been together for 5 years to now. She might be the one that stays with me the longest and the closest. I am grateful for that. Sometimes she drives me crazy too. About her privilege. But somehow, people love her. She has many best friends. I don’t. People scared of getting close to me. Sometimes she upset me about her indecisive and fear. But in the end, I can’t hate that person. Is just so weird a connection between two souls.
I told her about my saddest story. She knew. She talked. She comforted me. I feel better. Not about the story. But because I knew this was what I looking for in life. A person who be there for me, naturally, and lovingly. Nothing else. Then it came to me that this took so long for me to realise. It wasn’t about guys. It wasn’t about romantic relationship. It was about me. It was about who loves me unconditionally, and it is about who can accept me no matter what I did, no matter how stupid, and wrong I get into. There are people that come and leave my life. But for the first time, I do appreciate and love and care, and be thankful for those who really stay.